Thursday, March 12, 2009

Seriously Stupid

This is just a silly post although the title makes it sound pretty angry....

You know how they say pregnancy hormones make you stupid? or you can't remember anything? Well one day I hope to experience that, however in the meatime, I think I am experiencing some serious lack of intelligence from going through IVF. Seriously. I think all those hormones jack you up... or maybe it is JUST ME!?.... but today I had trouble counting pages in a proposal. There needed to be twenty. TWENTY. 20. And somehow after asking for multiple changes from my poor, poor professor I was working with, I would end up with 21 or 22 or 19, but not freaking 20!? I felt insane. But I am going to blame it on a lag in the effect of all those drugs.


GAHWD. I don't really feel better about blaming it on that though... *sigh* And luckily this guy has a sense of humor. And next week I have a week of obviously needed vacation.

On the doctor front... no one has gotten back to me about scheduling that follow up appointment. Go figure. If I am not cycling, I don't seem to exist with them. ;-) It is only helping me put it off even longer.

Friday, March 6, 2009

finally had the courage

I finally am feeling more up to talking to my doctor so I contacted them for a phone consult on IVF #2. We didn't do one last time at all and I know we need to talk about it. We still have no idea what our next move is going to be and I think my husband and I are both avoiding the subject for now. So I am just trying to be patient and actually that is turning out Ok. I feel pretty happy despite the sadness for a few weeks. After a really long cry with my mom I have actually felt WAY better. I think I just needed to get all that out. And it is hard for my husband to watch me do that sometimes. So, good thing I did tell my mom afterall. Also, she helped me do spring cleaning at my house. That was awesome.

And also, good thing I do not react like this to not getting prego: http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,505151,00.html

I am taking off over Spring Break and we have some gambling and a short trip planned. I am looking forward to it although it is all with people my husband knows more than I do. He is lucky to have a wife that get along with everyone, I remind him how lucky he IS all the time.

The more I have research grad school... not so sure again about doing it. Funny how I always seem to come to that conclusion. I think I am just a slacker. But once I really started looking at accounting, eh, not so much. It is just another thing up in the air. But it is fun exploring at least.

While I have not been commenting much, I have been keeping up with you all and wish you all the best!! I have kinda missed blogging ... and I just felt like I wanted to post. Although, it is kinda all random. Happy weekend to everyone!